Writing all these is not because I wanted to get attention from anyone else but I just want to let him know the moment I feel, the feeling me towards him.
You'll never know how important are you to me,
you'll never how much I need you and I would do anything just for you, even I am the one who are supposed to angry but still I low down my temperature to talk to you,
you'll never know how much I miss you,
you'll never know how much I wanted to talk to you, even just for a minute,
you'll never know how much I wish to see you, how much I want you to be on my side when I'm not happy, you'll never what you used to have until you lose it,
you'll never know when you decided leave me, I'm actually losing a part of me,
you'll never know everything, everything, everything about me, cause you don't even bother to find out.
My heart was taken by you, broken by you and now it's become pieces also because of you. Saying all these is not to make you feeling guilty or stuffs but it's all what I'm thinking right now. Looking back to the past, I find that the times we were happy together is now worth the times I cry alone.
I'm trying to be so understanding all the time cause I know you got something else that bother u so much. I didn't know what's happening at all as you don't even want to share a bit to me. All the while you think that I wont be understanding on the situation you facing now, all the while you think I'm immature (because of my age?), all the while you thought you like me but actually you did not at all.
As I've already told you if there's anything please don't be afraid and talk to me, even it's something which gonna hurt me badly but I don't care as long you talk to me with your heart. What so hard to tell me when you actually don't even like me anymore and you are waiting for me to say it first, if I'm the one who saying all these will make you feel better but I'll be very confirm to tell you that, it hurts me even badly. I thought it was a game at first but you deny it with fully confident saying no it's not a game but end up what is this? The hope you given me, and now you taken it away and act like nothing happened.
If there's a day you finally decided to fall in love with me again, it's gonna be the day I have given up on chasing you.
